Gina's Page

First let me say that I'm not use to sharing things about me or my life. Because of past experiences I've learned to be very guarded. I've spent a great deal of my life in the automation mode doing what I was suppose to never quite knowing who I was. For the most part, my life is very good. I'm blessed to have an education, a good job, creature comforts, and a wonderful son. In recent years, I've hit the stage now in my life where it is time to step out and let people into my life. Not an easy thing for me to let others close to me. I've began an awaking process that I can not stop. I was raised as a Christian. Between 2003 and 2005, I went through a series of earth shattering events that caused deep sorrow in the very depths of my soul. Some my mistakes and a lot out of my control. In 2004 I began to search for God fully. Spiritual growth and awareness hit me by leaps and bounds. My soul craved a relationship with God. I wanted a closer walk with Jesus and God that has not been fulfilled by me or in the church. In 2006, I had a bibical dream that catapulted me into a full blown search for the meaning of this dream. While in Blockbuster,when I was searching for a Christmas movie, right smack in the middle of old Christmas movies was a documentary about the Talpiot Tomb. That lead me to the works of different authors and that lead me here. I'm tired of hiding in this shell. 99% of the time I'm happy and have it all together but sometimes I'm a mess. I don't know anyone who is happy 24/7. So here I am in all my imperfect glory. Like the song says. I'm a beautiful mess. I think God likes people who are sometimes a beautiful mess because he loves his children and loves to take care of us. He's not the harsh God I've been taught all my life. I've done enough soul searching. This NOT a sad story but a story about VICTORY!. Although I would not have choosen to go through some things in my life, I'm grateful that God loved me enough to let me make my mistakes and then showed me how to live. Still all through all this, God has kept me and loved me enough to never give up on me. No matter what I've had come my way, I've survived only because of God. I am grateful for everyday. I'm happy.