I'm a bad group member!

Hi guys,

I want to take the time to apologise to everyone for being a bad group member and not taking the time to at least post quick notes and keep up.

As I mentioned before in my previous blogs things have all been a bit taxing at home with lots of family illnesses, freinds bereavments and just tumultous times really - and in all of this I got lazy and lax and let things slide - the group being one of the casualties.
I admit to probably being in a low grade funk and feeling pretty tired a lot of teh time and just not having energy to do more than the grind - however I have taken stock and realise that way leads only to further apathy and that I have to choose to do more.

I have recently in the last few days come to realise that this may well be a testing time of sorts and how I choose to respond to it will reflect my life and ways - so I choose to walk in the path of the light, to pick up the burden placed and to move forward with it relying on the fact that after a steep and rocky climb there is a wider view and a chance to reassess and get ones bearings.
That doesn't mean that the path downhill will be easier - indeed often it isnt, there could be shale making it slippery going! but there is still a path, a choice to make, a way to go and stopping is ok for a minute or to refuel but stopping and not moving on is a mistake -obstacles are only overcome if we keep going and that's my choice now.

So there we go, a decision made to move forward, to keep going in firm faith that the journey HaShem has me on has purpose and that though it all seems uphill at some point I will hit the top, and hopefully just in time to see dawn break across the new land of lush green and verdant growth. After today - tomorrow.

Hugz & sorry if none of that made sense! honestly I am not really loopy - just a little tangled! :o)

Melanie